This Quote Is So Powerful… Life Changing!

Hello!

So I am currently listening to a talk by Esther ‘Abraham’ Hicks – an amazing Law of Attraction/Spiritual teacher.  If you have not heard her speak, you must check her out!

Anyway, I will share in a later post all the nuggets of wisdom I am getting from her talk, but she (through the spirit of Abraham) said a quote just now which just blew me away!  And I HAD to share it!

“I WANT TO BE AN ALLOWER OF THE FULLNESS OF WHO I AM”

Wow.

That is such a powerful statement.  

But what does it mean?

Well my interpretation of this powerful statement is that we need to stop trying to be someone else.  We all have goals and visions and aspirations for the type of person we want to become, but we get so caught up trying to be someone that we forget to stop and just BE.  Just BE ourselves!

How the Law of Attraction and hence manifestation works is that you stop chasing things and stop YEARNING for things to come into your life, and instead step back and you JUST BE.

Just allow peace to flow into your inner self and just be at one with who you are.  When you ALLOW and give yourself permission to be you, then AMAZING things will start to happen.

My Experience

All my life I have had strong beliefs of who I am and what I want to achieve.  I have spent decades (yes a long time!) chasing goals of the type of person I want to be.  Always looking ahead, always ‘future thinking’.  

But in my current journey of self-discovery, I have learnt that it is about STOPPING and being at peace with who I am.  Loving who I am right now.  Because:

• I am already perfect
• I am all love
• I am divine
• I am just who I am meant to be
• I am a creation of the universe
• I am infinite
• I have source within me.  Now this is a BIG one!  By allowing yourself to accept that source/universe/god is within YOU, right now, that you don’t need to do anything to get it, then you can relax, take a deep breath, and smile knowing you are already who you are meant to be and ALLOW yourself to become the full expression of yourself.  You ALLOW yourself to grow into your true/higher self.

Wow!  lol

So become a gateway for the universe.  Stop trying to do things and ‘keep busy’ and just let the universe/source speak through you and guide you to become the ‘full expression of yourself’.

OMG it is just so powerful and beautiful and liberating!!!! I feel so good right now writing these words LOL

I must say that I never really understood the whole ‘inspired action‘ thing.  But since I have commenced this journey, I really have heard the universe start speaking to me and guiding me.  And it feels SOOO AMAZING!  It takes the pressure of me trying to figure things out, i just let go and let the universe guide me.  I shall write a post on that too 🙂

And a BIG THING:

Feel good!  

That’s it.  Simple – heaps simple – but that is the AIM of reaching your highest self.  That is the METHOD for becoming all you can be.  Feel good in every moment.

It doesn’t matter what is going on in your life right now.  It doesn’t matter how you feel about your body, relationships, martial status, income, living conditions, health etc.  JUST FEEL GOOD IN THE MOMENT.  

Why?

Because by focusing on feeling good, feeling positive, you attract what you want anyway!

Think about it…

Why do you want a new relationship?  Why do you want to attract that new car?  Why do you desire more money? Why do you visualize a healthier, hotter body?  TO MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD.

Abraham says – Feel good now, and all you want will come to you.  Why?  Because the law of attraction is a LAW.  That means it MUST happen.  It WILL happen.

It is through the ‘feeling good now’ that you become a vibrational MATCH for what it is that you want, and you will get it when the time is right.  The more you feel good, the more you raise your vibration, the FASTER good things come into your life.

So…

Feel Good.  That’s it!

Talk soon,

C

Day 5 -10: Make Yourself #1

I felt inspired to share with you something that I have taken YEARS to learn, but now am embracing.

It is putting yourself FIRST.

What do I mean by this?

It’s about saying “yes” to you. It’s about saying “yes” to your needs – your needs to grow, develop, experience, dream and go after your goals.

Why Don’t We Put Ourselves First?

I think that we get so caught up trying to please other people and trying to fight in and be accepted by others, that we put their needs and judgements ahead of our own. 

We become “yes” people to everyone else but ourselves, and in doing so, we end up saying “no” to what WE NEED most of the time.

In my life, I was so busy supporting other people and being there for others when they needed me, and trying to please others and make them like me, that I put what I NEEDED on the backseat.  I ignored the fact that I wasn’t growing and developing and didn’t face up to the fact that through trying to be everything to other people, I wasn’t being true to myself.

I become outward focused. I became obsessed with making sure people were happy with me.  I’m sure you know how much we all hate confrontation.  And we all dislike it when someone is mad or doesn’t like us.  It makes us feel unhappy and uncomfortable.

But what I have learned is that you HAVE TO PUT YOURSELF FIRST

Not in a selfish or arrogant or mean way.  But honor yourself. Be true to yourself. Give yourself the time and space to do all the growing and developing you need to do.

When We Are Happy, We Automatically Make Others Happy

During my ALL OUT positivity – and the reason for writing this blog and sharing my manifestation journey with you all, I have become much more positive and upbeat. And the great thing is that by focusing on making ME a better person, others around me have started to change too!

Just yesterday my parents and sister said to me that they noticed how negative they had been talking about things and that they had all decided to become more positive. I couldn’t believe it!  I hadn’t said anything to them about my journey!  

They went on to say that they realized how tense and stressed they were about events in life, and they had noticed how at peace I was becoming and they wanted to feel that too!

I was blown away!  I believe that by working on my inner world, I have begun to raise my vibration and in doing so, my higher vibrations have had a positive impact on the people I live with and has encouraged THEM to raise their vibrations.  So we are all feeling happier and more positive and I didn’t need to TELL them to do anything, I didn’t need to CONVINCE them to change.  My own happiness spread to them.

Win, win!

Treat Yourself Right First Before Others Will Treat You Right

A big thing I have learnt is that when you love yourself and find out what YOU need to be a better person, then you attract the right people into your life.

When you shower yourself with love and affection, you can’t help but bring to yourself people who will also show you love and gratitude.  

Remember:  Like Attracts Like

When you start to like and then love yourself, people who love you will appear and love you back.  then you’ll be rolling in love!

It’s pretty powerful stuff to know that your world is a mirror of who you are INSIDE.  If you don’t like what you see if your life right now, change what your thinking and feeling INSIDE and you will be amazed at how your outside world changes.

Already I have noticed big changes.  Here they are:

• negative people have moved out of my life on their own.  I didn’t need to say anything!
• people are being nicer to me
• people are so much happier to see me and enjoying being around me
• I need less sleep
• I am 100% more productive
• I am heaps more creative and amazing ideas are coming to me
• I feel more relaxed and at peace with myself and the world
• I have a ‘sense’ of what I need to do each day
• I am finding all the resources I need at the current point in time to produce my products
• I FEEL GOOD MOST OF THE TIME!

Please Put Yourself First

I encourage you to start to put yourself first.  Make YOU #1.

Think about what YOU need to grow and develop and attract the life you want.  

Yes there will be haters and people who judge you and try to stop you growing.  But they are only behaving that way because they are jealous of the awesome person you are becoming and want you to feel as badly as they do!  Trust me, I’ve had my fair share of those types of people 😛

Here are some things to think about to put you as No. 1:

• Do I need time on my own to get to know who I really am
• Give yourself time to meditate
• Read personal development books
• Start brainstorming goals you want to achieve
• Do something (no matter how small) EACH day that moves you toward achieving your dreams
• Print out positive quotes and put them where you can see them
• Think “I love myself” as often as you can
• Be gentle with yourself.  Don’t get annoyed with you or beat yourself up when you make mistakes. You are human. We aren’t perfect!
• Remove losers from your life (or distance yourself from them)
• Surround yourself with positive, loving people
• Get used to being ON YOUR OWN.  Enjoy your own company.
• Start telling yourself that you don’t need anyone else.  You don’t need other people’s approval.

I hope this post helps you to start embracing who you are and start on the journey to becoming the best version of you.

I shall end with this great quote from the amazing and inspirational Les Brown:

“Make it non-negotiable to work on your own behalf and your dream every single day. This doesn’t mean that you are selfish or insensitive to the people around you, or the other responsibilities in your life. Learning to say “No” to others and “Yes” to you…allows you to excel by setting appropriate boundaries on your time, energy and resources. Give yourself a real gift – the freedom to be who you really are and do what you were meant to do in the world.”

Talk soon,

C

The Power of a Vision Board / Dream Board

Hey again!  Hope you are having a great day!

So today I am excited to share with you my vision board / dream board.  

What is it?

Well it is a place where you put images and words that resonate with you about what you will manifest in your life.  

What is so magical about a vision board is that it is an effective way of ‘seeing’ your future – before it manifests in your life.

It also helps to keep you excited, motivated and focused on what you want to be thinking about and bringing into your existence.

A benefit of taking the time to make a vision board is that it forces you to really get clarity over what it is you want in your life.  There are soooo many things out there that I’m sure you want to achieve and bring into your life, but that can become overwhelming and sometimes you get so caught up in all these possibilities, you get paralyzed and end up not doing anything!

So the vision board helps you to decide what you truly want in your life, and helps you to make decisions about what you want to think about.  It makes all your desires ‘thinkable’!!

Here is my vision board:

Mine is only small (you can make yours as big and bold as you like.  I know someone who covered their entire bedroom door with theirs!), but I kept it to an A4 and put it in a plastic file so I can carry it around with me and also so I can look at it just before going to sleep and just at waking.  Those times are when your subconscious mind is most accessible, so it’s great to be able to fill my subconscious with these wanted images 🙂

Don’t Lose the Power

It’s pretty cool when you make you vision board because you can see your future laid out in front of you.  

I know when I look at mine, I get this rush of excitement and a huge smile on my face when I think of all the awesomeness coming my way!  It also makes me feel so grateful that I know how to make life work FOR me, and how I am consciously making the decision to step up and achieve the best life possible… Oh!  I’m getting excited just writing this lol

Anyway, I recommend not sharing your vision board with others.  

Why?   Because there will be people you care about who don’t know what you are doing and think it’s all wishful thinking or silly or they will just poo-poo your goals and bring you down.  This may tarnish the magic in your vision board and stop you from really connecting with it and being grateful for all your dreams coming true.  

So keep the board to yourself.  That’s why a smaller size is good because you can put it somewhere safe so others don’t come across it and start commenting and passing judgement.  

You don’t need anyone’s approval or permission to have a vision board.  All you need is the BELIEF in yourself that you WILL manifest all you desire.  

Back yourself, trust yourself and approve of yourself.

How to Make Your Vision Board

1. Start thinking about what you want to attract in the areas of:
   1. Wealth
   2. Health
   3. Enlightenment
   4. Love
2. Get magazines or Google images of what you want to manifest in these 4 areas
3. Find words that resonate with you and quotes that support your beliefs that you will attract these things into your life
4. Don’t limit yourself!  You can have as many pictures as you want.  There is no right or wrong.  Just find pictures and words that have a meaning to you
5. Get a piece of paper/pin-board/door! and divde it into 4 areas
   1. place the pictures and words in their space.
6. Laminate/Cover the paper so you can carry it around and protect it from damage
7. Look at your vision board before bed and when waking
   1. take your time to look at each image/word and just FEEL gratitude and LOVE and HAPPINESS for what you see (this is an effective way to raising your vibration)
   2. Allow your positive feelings to cover the vision board.
   3. Put a smile on your face to help increase your positive feelings.
8. Once you are feeling great about all your wish to manifest you can go to sleep or wake up and enjoy your day.
9. KNOW and BELIEVE that when the time is right, your dream board pictures (or something better!) will come into your life.

I hope you feel pumped to create your own vision board.  

Feel free to tinker with it and use it every day as a great reminder of what you are going to attract into your life.

I find my vision board is very effective at ‘putting me in the mood’ for higher vibrations and powerful manifestation lol

Remember to NOT limit yourself and THINK BIG!

Talk soon,

C

 

 

 

 

Using Law of Attraction to Find My Soul Mate

This is a very exciting post for me because of the AWESOME person I WILL attract 😀

So the first thing to note when using the Law of Attraction in your life is that you need to tell the universe/source what you want.  

How to Communicate with the Universe to Get What You Want

I like to see the Law of Attraction as an waiter.  it wants to know exactly what you want to order so it can bring it into your life.

Now most of us go through life with our ‘ordering’ on automatic.  We never take notice of the thoughts in our minds and the ‘ordering’ that we are doing.  Many of us tend to focus on what we DON’T want.  So we think thoughts (make orders) like:

• I don’t want to be fat (but this is really ordering that you want to be fat!)
• I don’t want a partner who takes me for granted (this is ordering a partner that takes you granted because that’s what you’re focusing on!)
• I don’t want to be tired
• I don’t want to do this job

I think you get the idea now 🙂

So we focus on what we DON’T want, and then get annoyed and frustrated when the universe brings us exactly what we DON’T want.  But the universe doesn’t know the difference between good and bad.  It just brings you what you are thinking about.

Okay, so back to my soul mate…

So I have learnt that you need to know who you want in a partner.  You need to give your ‘order’ to the universe so you can manifest that person into your life. 

My Soul Mate

So I thought I would share with you who my soul mate will be:

1. Entrepreneur  (preferably running successful online businesses) 
2. Intelligent, self-motivated, driven and ambitious
3. Shares lots of interests with me (e.g. believes and lives according to law of attraction)
4. Loving, kind, gentle, understanding and empathetic
5. Romantic and physically affectionate (good in bed!)
6. Energetic, spontaneous and passionate about life
7. Creative
8. Adores me, supports me, encourages me to grow and develop

Okay, so there is my husband right there!  Let’s see how I go in manifesting him in my life 😀

So I encourage you to sit down and really think about who you want to attract into your life.  You can be as detailed as you want.  You know, we spend more time organizing a holiday than our partner!  

It is fun and exciting to do, and in my next post I’ll share with you how to boost your attracting abilities through the use of a dream board / vision board.

Talk soon,

C

Day 5 – Life is FOR You

Hello again!

So I am on Day 5 of my positive-ness and I must say my mood as been so much better.  I really do feel happier, even though nothing amazing or ‘miracle’ worthy has happened to me – yet!

I also feel lighter.  It’s very interesting how ‘light’ positive thoughts and feelings are. I also feel more energetic and don’t need as much sleep as I used too when I was feeling down and low and ‘heavy’ with negativity.

Now I wanted to share with you this beautiful thought about the fact of:

Life is FOR you

What I mean by this is to have a mind-set where you believe and know that life is working for your greatest good. Life is on YOUR side.

I think that so many of us believe that life is meant to be a struggle, difficult, annoying and somehow always ‘out to get us’. So this thinking encourages us to be full of negativity and see the glass has half empty.

However, what a change to see life has working with you and helping you to achieve your best. I find this idea a really empowering and smile-inducing thought 🙂

I am already in Heaven

Another beautiful thought to think is to see your life as heaven sent. See yourself creating a life that will be like Heaven on Earth.

I just love the idea of someone saying “how’s your life going?” and I reply “I love my life. I am living in Heaven, here on Earth!”

How amazing to know that all the positive thinking I am deliberately doing is creating Heaven for me, right here and now.

The last mind-set thought I have read and want to share with you is:

I already have an abundant life

I’m learning how powerful it is to have an abundance attitude.

I know the majority of us (me included) have been brought up with the beliefs of scarcity and competition and shortages. But, even though we’re not in the place we aspire to be, we are actually experiencing GREAT ABUNDANCE right here and now!

I am really focusing on training myself to have an abundance attitude.  Everything I am reading is stressing the important of this mind-set.

When I go for walks or drive in the car, I see all the leaves on the trees and the millions of grass blades in the fields and it reminds me that there is so much abundance all around us. Nature is abundant!  And so are we.  I think through our lives we move away from our natural knowing that the universe, and us, are abundant. I need to get back to that place where I know that I can have all I desire, I must believe first, then it will appear.

CEOs know this!

Another interesting discovery I have made is that sooo many successful BUSINESS people (CEOs, top marketers, CIOs etc) all possess amazingly positive and abundant mind-sets. I have been studying marketing and have been blown-away by the number of successful people who practice the Law of Attraction (or their definition of it) and have used it to create the huge success in their lives.

It is a great reminder for me that I am on to the ‘real deal’ and that by sticking to the law of attraction and committing to increasing my vibration by thinking positively, I WILL attract great abundance and wealth into my life.  YAY! 😀

 

I am excited about this journey and I really am dedicated to making positive thoughts and feelings of love and gratitude a habit and natural state for me. I am excited that you are sharing this journey with me,

I’d like to finish off this post with a great quote I read today that I will be printing and putting on my bedroom wall!

“The mindset comes first, everything else comes after.”

Talk soon,

C

 

What I Am Doing – Meditation

Now we’ve all (or most of us) have heard about Meditation.  I firstly imagined monks sitting on some high mountain and with crossed legs and serious face, would meditation for hours and hours. So I believed that meditation was something you had to really get into and it was a difficult and complex process.

So I resisted meditating…

Even though everything I was reading about Law of Attraction, enlightenment, positivity and creating the life you want all told me how beneficial meditating is.

Then I came across some texts that actually explained how to do meditation and I discovered that it was SIMPLE and EASY and in fact, ENJOYABLE!

I tried out a variety of different forms of meditation, from listening to theta beats (which helps to put you in a deeper trance) and listening to audios of people chanting positive words into my subconscious.  But these meditations were quite intense and after a while I just got ‘over’ doing them! Not that they didn’t help me, but it would last for 20 to 30 minutes and I just didn’t feel the need to to them all the time.

So I NEEDED to discover a way to meditate, because I do believe it is very beneficial for setting up your mind to receive what you want. 

So on this positivity binge I have found a simpler and more enjoyable (and shorter!) way to meditate and it is working so far! I have been meditating EVERY morning and night. 

A Key note here is that I meditate just before falling asleep and just after waking. This is when you subconscious mind is most accessible (your conscious mind hasn’t fully woken up and put up all its walls), so you get your positivity and gratitude thinking straight to the source 🙂

Here’s What I Do…

1. Pick my a piece of music I enjoy listening to again and again.  I chose Enya’s ‘O Come, O Come, Emmanuel’.  Check it out here!  it is a beautiful piece of music and I love hearing it.

2. Close eyes and lie down in bed

3. Put a smile on my face

4. Take a deep breath

5. Breathe in and say a positive statement. E.g. I love my life; I love myself; I am happy; I am grateful; (just pick ONE to use throughout the meditation)

6. Breathe out and just FEEL the love/happiness/thankfulness

7. Breathe in again saying your chosen statement

8. I either just enjoy the music and the feelings and sometimes I visualize what I want to manifest in my life.  E.g. car, soul mate, money flowing to me.

9. At the end of the meditation (I do it for 7 mins by putting the music on repeat) I imagine a warm, bright light coming from the sky and covering my head. This is the love of the universe, bathing my mind with positivity and love and abundance.

10. When your meditation is finished, make an even bigger smile, take a deep breathe and DONE!

 

Thanks for reading this post, I hope it has inspired you to start meditating 🙂

Talk soon,

C

Step Up into Your True Self

Hello again!

So I was feeling a bit at a loss shall we say that I felt alone in my quest to align my life with my higher self.  So feeling that way I thought I’d sit outside with my gorgeous cat and just listen to some good old musical tunes (Legally Blonde was playing).

I then had the urge to listen to a business/self-development audio.  As I mentioned in my first post, I am now living according to my ‘inner promptings’ which I believe are coming from the universe.  So I went into my ‘recently added’ playlist and the first audio I come across was a business audio I downloaded a YEAR ago!

This audio was EXACTLY what I needed to hear!  It completely cheered me up and reminded me that I am on the RIGHT journey and that other people, who are now very successful, have felt alone and frustrated too, but kept going and reached their light at the end of the tunnel.  I cannot tell you how happy I was to hear these uplifting words.  The audio was by Ali Brown (alibrown.com) a woman who I swear was talking directly to me!

I was so impressed with what she had to say about making your own journey that I want to share some of her insights and wisdom with you:

• We are a rare breed.  Most people are happy to spend their lives working 9 to 5, then coming home and cooking the meal and chatting about their day, or the weather or gossiping and then watching TV or going online.  This is fine.  Only a small percentage of us (like 1%) are passionate and maybe even obsessed with living life on a higher level.  We want to ask the deeper questions like ‘who am I really?!’ ‘what is my life all about?’

 

• Fear isn’t real.  Even though the thought of quitting your job, or leaving a relationship or starting your own business scares the hell out of you, it isn’t real.  Your fear is just your interpretation of the action.  By ‘stepping through your fears’ – doing the things you fear the most, you overcome them and eliminate them from you life.

 

• Be comfortable with being UNcomfortable.  I loved this!  It is so where I am right now.  Being single, not having a job, learning a whole new set of skills is all making me very uncomfortable but it is the ONLY time you GROW!  So BRING IT ON!

 

• My fav from Ali:  ‘Step into the next version of YOU‘.  This brought tears to my eyes.  It is the best definition of the transition I am going through right now.  I am moving from the ‘old’ me where I NEEDED to be in a relationship, I needed to be supported and approved by others, I needed to feel safe and secure into a version of ME that is free, light, and self-sufficient.  I actually defined my whole day based on this line!

 

• Mastering Marketing.  This is where I’m at in my new biz life.  I am busy reading, reading, READING!  Saturating my mind with information on marketing.  Ali affirmed that it is so important to understand this as THIS is how you get your products and services out there to the marketplace.  BRING IT ON (again!)

I hope you got a lot out of this post, as I did, and if you want to hear the audio yourself, go to Ali’s website:  alibrown.com.

BTW I’m not affiliated with Ali at all!  I just loved her audio and got a lot out of it and know you will too 😀

Talk soon,

C

 

Day 1 – 19 July 2014

So I am on the road to reaching my ‘higher self’.

What does this mean?

Well within all of us is our ‘true self’.

1. The person that we would be most happiest and fulfilled being.
2. You know how you have innate talents or interests? These are our true selves. The special parts of us that we are born with. Some people are born with the talent of music, or dancing or singing or writing or networking.

However, the majority of us (the vast majority) never get to a place where we are expressing our true self because we get caught up with getting an education, working out what to do as a career based on the principles that you need to make good money and it be a ‘socially acceptable’ job. I.e. doctor, lawyer, psychologist, dentist, accountant or government employee.

All these involve working for someone else or working for yourself using your specialist skills i.e. accountant, but even in this case, you really end up working for your customers. In fact, I have observed that those working for themselves end up being more stressed and working much longer hours because their entire income depends entirely on them. Anyway, that’s a whole other story!

So back to being true.

So only a few of us ever get to the point where we are so miserable and bored and over fitting into a box that society has made for us and repressing our individuality and creativity that we decide that we need to step off from the rat race and discover how the hell to get happy. Hence where I am. I am on this journey to discover my true self and to create a life on my terms.

So after leaving my well-paying executive government job, selling my home, selling my brand new car and breaking up with my fiancé, I am back with my parents I started out on this new journey of self-discovery at the ripe old age of 28!

But let me tell you. It is NOT easy. It is scary as hell!

Because suddenly you are back to square one. I had no job, no partner, no income and no assets. I was starting from scratch but I was not young and carefree. I didn’t have another 10 years to get my shit together before reaching the big 3-0. So facing this daunting and overwhelming reality of ‘oh my god, I’ve stuffed my life!’ I hit rock bottom and ended up being extremely depressed (not leaving my bed for a whole day), ended up in the psych ward and then back out wondering if I should just end it all or take on the challenge I had voluntarily opted for and discover who I really was. Reach my higher self.

Background Info On Me!

So I started reading all about the Law of Attraction and how you are in control of your life. I watched the secret and read books on the LOA subject. Especially about the fact that we are all just bundles of vibrating energy walking around and that we need to work on increasing our energy (our energy vibration) so that we align with the things we want that are also of a higher vibration to bring them into our lives as ‘like attracts like’.

It was fascinating to read that love is at around 800 on the vibration scale and joy is 500 (or something like that!) whereas guilt and shame vibrate at 30.

It all resonated with me and I was like ‘oh my god! These people think the way I do! They answer all these questions I’ve had for YEARS!’ and boy was this liberating and exciting and tear inducing! I was discovering (to my utter delight) that I could change my whole life and be and have whatever I wanted! I started to get into a good place, where I was no longer feeling depressed and actually feeling happy most of the time! 29 years was looking good.

But then the loneliness started to creep back (and boy is it persistent) and the fear that I was never going to make money and get anywhere became too much. So I started to panic and think, ‘I’ve never been single for long. I am getting old. I need to find a partner to support me and make me happy’. So I actively went about looking for someone to fill my ex’s spot to make me less fearful of the unknown and nerve-wracking path I had embarked on. I was definitely treading down the ‘path less traveled’.

I met a lovely guy and we hit it off straight away and I thought, ‘good. Things are looking more normal now.’ He was sweet, intelligent and had a very well-paying job. My parents were relieved that I seemed to be acting more like normal and I moved in with him. I thought I had met my match. Someone who I would marry, he would support me as I tried to discover who the hell I really was and how I could create the life I want, we’d have gorgeous babies and live happily ever after.

Things were going well. But then… the nagging started. Again. The nagging voices and feelings that this was not right for me. The nagging sensations that I was missing out on something, that there was more to life and I had taken the easy option. I couldn’t shake it. I couldn’t be left in peace. I kept thinking that I wasn’t on the path to finding my true self anymore. I had taken a detour. As fun and enjoyable as it was, I was beginning to see that my new partner wasn’t interested in all I was reading and discovering. I was getting really into enlightenment and Stuart Wilde and Esther ‘Abraham’ Hicks and reading all about online businesses and a whole other way to live life. But he was in the ‘old school’ way. You work at a job, you work hard for your money, and then you come home and relax in front of the TV or computer. Yeah he’d listen to me talk about how there is so much more to life, but he didn’t ‘get’ it. He was supportive and loving of me, but I felt horribly on my own. I hated that. I hated that fact that while he played computer games, I either joined in and spent an entire evening playing a fantasy game or I would be alone reading and discovering about how much more there is to our thoughts and the worlds we can create. Argh!

So after getting tired of feeling confused and conflicted and frustrated, and knowing that even though I HATED the thought of being single and now I was 30 (gasp!) that I still didn’t have income or have any idea how I was going to make my great wealth, I knew I had to get back on the path to discovering my true self and aligning with my higher self.

So a break up was had, and here I am. Writing to you about my first part of this journey of manifestation. The break up was two weeks ago. It still hurts and I am mourning the loss of someone I deeply cared for. But I know, despite how painful it is, that there is someone out there who feels how I feel, who is totally passionate about life and learning how to create an amazing life with the power of their mind and is out there living life on their terms, not following the rules society gives us.

So here I am. Back at the beginning. Back at my parents but this time feeling stronger than last time I was in this position. I am more knowledge of LOA and the powers of the universe and the infinite, abundant nature of source energy. I realize that I have to have 100% faith that all I want, I WILL manifest. I need to work on myself – inside – before my life – outside- morphs to reflect what I want.

I am writing this to help me get through this journey. And I officially start this journey today. Saturday 19 July. So why is writing this going to help me on my journey?

Because there is no one in my life (at this present moment) who understands the journey I am going on. My partners, sisters and friends have no idea of what I am discovering and what power we all have to change our lives. I have tried COUNTLESS times to talk to them about it, to educate them (!!) but they don’t understand or want to hear me out. They think I am ‘different’ and just put up with my musings and ‘new thought thinking’ because they want me to be happy and don’t want to risk my falling back into deep depression. So I am alone on this journey. Except for you reader. That is why I want to share all I am experiencing and thinking with you. So that if you too are wondering why you keep thinking that there is MORE to life, but have no one to support or understand you, then you can read this and connect with me and we can share our journeys.

Let me be honest with you: I have NO IDEA where I am going! I have NO IDEA how my life will pan out or WHY I have these pestering feelings and thoughts that tell me that I need to discover more about myself and peel back the layers of ‘normality’ to get to a deeper, more satisfying life. I wish there were people around me who understand what I am going through so I can get all these thoughts and questions and feelings off my chest. But no one ‘gets it’. Everyone around me is content and happy with working hard and going home to relax in front of the TV or computer screen. Sigh. Sometimes I get so frustrated that there is no one to talk to about everything I am learning, I just burst into tears in my room and it’s the only way I can let out the tension. Oh well. I know one day I will be surrounded by people who ‘get it’.

I went out to lunch with a friend today and a group of young girls sat beside us. I couldn’t help but overhear some of their conversation as it was quite heated and animated and they were soooo negative! All they talked about was how much they hated their jobs and how annoyed they were blah and blah and how it was unfair that xyz happened. It made me realize just how negative we are in our natural states! We are walking negative energy and we just feed off other people’s negative and we all love it! I have to get away from that. I can see why people go on retreats and turn into hermits for a while. You need to keep away from that negativity. It makes you frustrated when you are concentrating on being positive because their negativity rubs up against your positivity. Just sitting there I feel their negativity start to seep into me. Yuck! I’m better off being quiet and having time alone to get aligned with my higher self and then develop the strength in myself to effectively deal with negativity.

So back to today. I am starting my journey to really making this manifesting thing work for me.

My starting point:

• 30 years of age
• No job
• No income
• No partner
• Driving second hand car
• Living at home with parents

Ok this is what I will (although I should write ‘have’) manifested:

• Partner who runs own business. Is wealthy. Understands and lives by law of attraction. Passionate about living life to the full. Doesn’t follow societal rules.
• Several online businesses each producing $100,000 a month in income
• Expensive Sports Car and Vovlo XC60
• Engaged
• Living in mansion

I end each with “or something better”. Ok. There you have it!

So what am I doing?

• Reading/listening/watching law of attraction material, positive and self-development material
• Reading ‘The Field’
• Studying marketing
• Studying how to set up and run online businesses

As all positive people know, every journey begins with a single step. So I am taking mine. I am now basing my life off what feels GOOD. I am now fully listening to my inner guidance that has been pestering me my whole life and letting it take control of my life so I can reach my higher self. I am deliberately thinking only positive, abundant thoughts about everything I want as if I already have it in my life. As Wayne Dyer said, ‘you have to believe it to see it’.

I feel better now sharing how I’m feeling and my plans with you. Thank you. Sometimes I feel the need to share all that’s going on in my head with someone because I feel as though I am going to burst!

One of my big lessons is to be OK and HAPPY with being on my own. It’s one of the foundations of manifesting your dream life. You have to be ENOUGH on your own. Then you can attract all you want. So after most of my life being a ‘girlfriend’ and hating being on my own, I am officially ON MY OWN at 30! Woo! Virtual High Five!

So let’s go on this journey together and see where it takes us!

Talk soon

C